Looks?

Looks are almost everything to this date in this cruel society, don't you dare deny this.
When people are praising you like, "hey you're pretty." "you look like barbie doll" "you're quite cute you know" "you're likea japan girl", how would you feel, proud? confident? elated? shy?
Do you know how I felt? None of the above.
I feel guilty. Like I've been deceiving people, giving them this delusion.
I got these praises when I had my make-up on and people totally turned off when they saw my naked face. Yeah totally chui.
I know, you might think, if receiving praises are so torturing to me, why not just don't put make-up and just live it simple? Well I wanna look presentable and not embarassing the people who's hanging out with me.
I'm actually fine with my looks, I don't pursue perfection but as you know, this era of people are fucking mean especially when they open their mouths. I've gotten like, "wah she sure photoshop her pictures one la see her real life kns" "pictures very nice but rl.." "i was shocked she looked like this" WELL SORRY TO DISAPPOINT YOU SIR/MDM.
One more thing, I DO NOT PHOTOSHOP. ITS CALLED EFFECTS & MAKE-UP & SKILLS.
After these demoralising comments, I have lost my confidence.
My lack of confident became an excuse too. For example,
- "I don't want a relationship because my non-make-up face will scares my boyfriend away"(well it always scares my sister almost every night HAHA.)
-"I don't dare to take fashion design la. You got see fat designer before meh?"
-"no point shopping. wear what also same."
-"aiya no need facial-care products la, ugly jiu ugly liao."
AND A LOT MORE. my friends know it HAHA.
Sometimes I even joked like, "hey i should fly to taiwan and participate the before-and-after makeup competition, my chui face cfm win sia!" well everybody agreed.
Then I realised, it's not people who demoralises me anymore, it was me myself.

I have friends who have been encouraging me, kept urging me not to makeup anymore, and saying actually I looked fine without make-up. Well thanks darlings. I began pulling myself up, trying to gain back what's lost. I love doing make-up, just hate relying on it. I love dolling up because it surprises people that I look different with every style. And I realised that, the more you hide yourself, the more people like to dig dirts outta you so let it out! That's why I posted one of my no-make-up face picture on Facebook and you know what? Nasty comments decreased rapidly and starting to cease. Because when truth is out, there's no point gossipping anymore.

Well what I've been trying to say is, if you think you're not good-looking, there's no wrong for girls and boys trying to look good what, so just doll youself up! But please, don't lose confidence, accept what you are, be a lil proud, you have to love and respect yourself, leaving no opportunities for people to use your weakness against you. Grab hold onto that and live it smooth with good personality, you'll radiate something that attracts people to you, and they are the real true people you should cherish, rather than people who come to you only because you're a mf pretty princess, seriously, can looks earn money? even at geylang they earn money by body not face. To me, looks probably can earn sympathetic.
You just have to accept the fact that there is always someone who's prettier than you.

If you're really that kind of epic person that thinks you must be the prettiest living human on earth, then start saving money and go for a surgery or surgeries lol. At the end of the day, you realise what you had lost and never ever can get it back.

The nature, the first face, the individual one & only creation from God.

Cheers.